Expect the Unexpected while Expecting It.

It's been like a year since I have written anything. For those of you who read my blog--my sincere apologies. BUT, I have great news. Since my last post, God has done so much in my life. Right now, I have been living in freedom and living life to the fullest every day. I did lay down and die, and He Himself resurrected me. Many friends and family tried to save me, but it was God Himself who reached down and placed a new, golden heart in me; breathed life into me and changed my life completely. I'll tell you right now...dying is not easy. Actually, it's harder than anyone thinks and imagines. I thought I could just say the words, but God said that I needed to go through the process to live.

However, all that said, I want to celebrate life. Today, I am happier than I have ever been. I am excited to be in love with Jesus and expectantly can't wait to meet with Him everyday. He IS my life and my freedom. He IS my Hope and He will NEVER leave me or forsake me. I have come to learn that with just one word from Him, He will heal me. I am so blessed.

Yes, I have been through loads of pain and hurt. I would go through it all again if it made me wiser and closer to Jesus and and if my friends were able to get close to Jesus. I love spending my life on others. I love to give. I love to bless. I love to love. I love to give mercy. I love to see people healed and walk in freedom. I love Jesus!

Right now, I am loving life. I am Testing, Trusting, and waiting for His Timing. God is moving and keeps drawing me close to Him. I am all smiles, and I am all joyful. God has blessed me and keeps giving me more and more. I love blessing others with my life. I can be crazy and funny, yet I have learned to be serious and wise when needed. Life is too short to live like an adult who can't laugh. And life is too short to live as I am still an immature child.

Also, I thank God I am no longer living in pain. I am glad I am no longer living in anguish. All I know is whatever God tells me, I will do. I will obey--no matter if it hurts--cause I know He will heal me and has my best interest in mind.

Well, I just want to say one last thing. Sunsh, if you're reading this--bless you! And thanks for being such a blessing to me. I hope you started from the beginning. I think now God ha freed me to write more positive things. And I will. Bless you all and bless you, Sunsh! Tell Baby I said hi!